I have been away for a long time and now I am where I can create again.
Setting up the studio yesterday was a step back toward being myself. I have
so many ideas for painting that it is hard to know where to start. I am inspired by many things. Nature is probably at the top of the list. I love doing abstracts but I want to explore some new territory. Portraits interest me a great deal. This painting is a visionary piece I did a few years ago. It is called Earth Spirit. More to come soon.
I don’t know if anyone will read this, but I just thought I would write something. I haven’t for a long time. So, my chosen topic is: Love is the answer to all things. I have been told this many times but what does that mean, really? Here are some of my thoughts on the subject. Love has many ways of expressing itself, if we allow ourselves to let it do so. Love is often the motivating factor for making positive change in one’s life. In fact it is the motivating factor. It is the reason people strive for making this world a better place.
Love begins with self. It comes from within and we express ourselves with love or without love depending upon any given circumstance. Many people are feeling stretched to the limit; these are stressful times. People do not always react in a loving fashion to their circumstances or others around them. They forget their true origins and their connection with their own divine nature. In this world it is easy to forget but now we are awakening to ourselves and our divinity. And still it is difficult to rise above it all and remain our loving selves. We remind ourselves everyday that love will find a way, even when we are not feeling very loving toward ourselves or our fellow human beings. We forgive ourselves and hopefully laugh at our own shortcomings and slowly pull ourselves up out of the quagmire of the world around us. Seeking the safe haven of our own heart and soul and the desires of our soul’s expression. I say this to all those who seek the answers elsewhere. The answers are always within you, no exceptions. You can ask any number of people what you should do, but only you can really answer your life’s questions. What makes a difference in your decision is what you base that decision upon. Sometimes playing it safe isn’t the safest or wisest thing to do. Love will take you places unimagined if you will only let it. Remember, you have wings. Jumping off the cliff might be the right way to go. Sometimes it is the only way. Even as I write this, I feel a little smile come across my face because I know I must choose something extraordinary to do with my life because that is what is within me to do. I have been teetering on the edge with indecision for too long and must choose carefully to make a successful leap into the happier life I seek. I must.
We let our circumstances dictate to us instead of allowing our own inner truth to guide us on the path to a better way of living. Some are finding things easier and smoother than others. Those that are experiencing difficulty and are aware of their own foibles will wrestle every side of the argument to the ground before doing exactly what was in their heart to do, no matter how crazy it may seem, because it is the right thing to do. Now, there is a lot of love needed in this world. Being more loving to ourselves extends outward. There are so many people in severe circumstances in this world. Humanity is challenged as never before to end war, famine and greed and find solutions to our planet’s distress. This world is sitting on a precipice and we must all band together to renew and protect this precious ecosphere.
Love must find a way. It is time to remove the rose-tinted glasses and see what is happening and how we must change to enable a sustainable world. It is happening in so many ways but there are still so many destructive forces rampaging the planet that must be counteracted in order for us to survive. I hope that humanity rises above the chaos of it’s own folly and opens once more to what it could be. We must continue to turn the tide toward renewal.
OK. Here I am. Didn’t finish the painting of my previous post. So I have to laugh at the absurdity of my life of late. The desire is there, the ideas scroll through my mind ad infinitum. The best ones usually come to me when I am busy with other things, like in the middle of a work shift. When I decide to sit and sketch, they vanish. Great. Full of energy at the wrong times too. Are we having fun yet? I just love the earth changes thing, it’s so much fun.
For you viewing pleasure, here is a painting I did awhile ago.
I am spiritual, very spiritual. I walk this world with full awareness of spirit and the energy of all life surrounding me. I have been fully aware for 28 years. I have had visions and a certain level of awareness since the age of 4, although I did not become more conscious until I was 25. I have always considered myself to be an upbeat, positive person but these have been challenging times. I think we chose this challenge, every bit of it. I say ‘we’ because I know others who are experiencing the same conditions of reality in the world as we think we know it.
That being said, are we having fun yet? I am reminding myself and anyone who might read this and relate to it, laughter is the best medicine. Laugh, because it is all so absurd. Smile at your own fumblings and remember it is all of your making. As ridiculous as it may sound, greet each day as a fresh opportunity to take a step toward whatever goal or dream for which you want to shoot. Inch forward, crawl if you have to, but do not give up what is in your heart and soul to do. Remember who you are and the joy of living even in your lowest moments. If you and I can do that then, well, perhaps there is hope for this world.
Love and Light,
Yesterday was my birthday. Went to Denny’s for my free breakfast by myself. Had a nice meal, good coffee. Actually, really good coffee. Enjoyed myself despite the circumstances of my life. Considered my options for the day and had the idea to get outside with nature for awhile. So, I went to Mounts Botanical Gardens, a little gem of a place, where butterflies like to roam. I walked and sat and took pictures that I might use in some artwork.
It was a nice morning, warm and getting humid but that’s Florida. The air was fragrant with the scent of many flowers that, as yet, I do not know the names of. I prayed for peace. I prayed for the way through my difficulties. I prayed for help. And then I splurged and bought myself a $4 plant to bring me some hope, a Blackberry Lily. Someone told me it gets orange flowers with spots on them. My mother’s favorite color. So maybe she and my sister are helping behind the scenes. I know from where most of my help comes from.
My inner self knows that I will overcome all of the obstacles that have been thrown in my path. Rest assured I will land on my feet. The universe always provides and of course I can fall back on cliché, reminding myself that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I should be able to bench a semi by now.
All I want is to be myself and be appreciated for what I do. I am weary of being ignored. I am worthy of positive attention paid to my work. I can write and I can draw. So, perhaps someone out there will read this and give me the opportunity to be of service. I would like to freelance in art or writing.
After the gardens I met my Dad and his girlfriend for lunch at the chinese buffet. Delish as usual and a nice birthday bag with a bag in it. The perfect purse, just at the right time when the one I was using was falling apart. It gave me hope for a better life and reassured me that the universe has heard my request and is bringing it to me right now.
Then I went to work at the restaurant. I am waitressing right now. I have an MA in Anthropology but have had to work in service industry jobs to stay afloat. Coming to Florida just made it an extra challenge. I love my Dad more than anyone on the planet. I do not regret my decision to come here. So, I had a nice day up until I went to work. It would have been a nicer evening if my fellow coworkers had one shred of a clue how their behavior effected others. I consoled myself with a nice piece of banana dream cake and for the sake of my own inner peace, let it go.
I wish all of you peace and joy in life.
So, it’s been awhile since I have written. I decided to share part of a writing I received from St. Germain, an ascended master with whom I have had long association.
“Everyone on this planet has the ability and the resources to achieve anything that they wish, for it is all available to them if they would but seek the path. No one is exempt from this very basic universal law. Abundance is, in fact, a divine right and seeing as all is in divine order, even when it appears things are not. Everyone should be in a state of complete security and living a prosperous life. That prosperity is in fact engrained into the very fabric of existence of this planet. It cannot be put asunder so to speak, regardless of what the other side or your media might try to convince you to believe. None of you are ever alone and your needs will be met. Sometimes you must strive to reach higher ground in order to achieve greater abundance and prosperity; nobody said it would all be just handed to you without any work. You still have to do the work. It is just that you must do it with the belief that what you are doing is what you are meant to do. You create your reality and depending upon your own consciousness and what issues you may yet have, you will create what you desire. Sometimes it will come more easily than others.
Knowing the path and living the path may at first seem at odds with the character of the nature of your life. The biggest obstacle for most people is letting go of the fear of leaving the comfortable and heading straight on into unknown territory. Some people have learned to do this adroitly and with general abandon. They love the thrill of the chase, the pursuit of their happiness. Happiness is something worth pursuing, don’t you think? It must be, often, to be achieved. Things will seem easy at times and others they will require more input upon your part. The trick is to keep putting in. Once you get the flow going, there is nothing that you cannot achieve. So, if you have a dream or vision of what you want your life to be, you must grab onto it and begin to create it, everyday in whatever small way, until you achieve it. If you give up, you will never know what might have been. You will know when you are close to achieving your goals. You will feel it and you will push past the last of the obstacles that would stand in your path and you will fly free, soaring to new heights of attainment.”
I have been working with the Ascended Masters and Archangels, consciously, for 27 years. In regard to what St. Germain said, I have found that the more you accept yourself, the more others will too. The more you accept yourself, the more you work at who you are and not what others think you are or should be. You must have a vision of self that transcends the circumstances of your life and allow yourself to Be. We all have divinity within us. We are all creators. We all have dreams, goals, aspirations and certain talents and gifts. Being an individual with certain talents and a vision of life using those talents helps to manifest results in this world. Right action led by the divine within you can help you to flourish.
Obstacles occur, testing your devotion to the dream of self that you would live. Sometimes, persistence is required to see your goals through to fruition. The universe will respond. Keep believing.
Love and Light,